Your ex-whatever
pops up on my
“people you may know”
and I remember the poem—
only girls who break you
get a poem written about them—
and I remember you leaning
against a truck in B lot
and telling me
that to her,
you were “too happy”.
I remember telling you
“I never liked her anyway”,
because that’s what I usually say
in these situations
where you’re mad at your heart
for getting hung up on a rose of a girl
with words that cut like thorns,
mad at yourself for falling,
for getting a poem written about you
with a cliché simile.
And this girl,
with the quirky eyebrows
and sanguine smirk,
never can be caught smiling
in any of the photos she shares with the
the world
and that might not
justify me not liking her,
but it sure makes me feel good
when I can get you laughing, teeth bared
in the moonlight.
And I thank God
for your broken heart;
for a poem where
you compare her to smoke,
to coke,
to everything that kept you
at the brink of falling apart,
because
she’s gone now
and I’m sitting in a car
with your hand tracing circles on my hip
in pure silence,
and I know when I told you earlier
“I want the very best for you”,
not only was it sincere,
it’s because I believed
you deserve it.